What’s rattlin’ around in the recesses of my mind *day 1*

A blog, a sense of arrogance, a way to communicate my thoughts and feelings out in to the world in full view for others to comment upon. Interesting concept for someone who has never really enjoyed public ridicule. Hopefully this will be a place for me to freely express what is happening in my world regarding my parents, my thoughts, my life. Hopefully this will grow. Hopefully it will be, exists, expressing my internal thoughts. A diary of sorts, an adult journal in a manner that allows me to express myself freely and willingly to the whims of the pen; or in this case, the typed word. We will see... Day 1 begins with thoughts on my parents. That is where my concentration is, my heart, my head, my everything right now. I am on the front 9 of 40 and moving fast through the fairways as I watch my parents age. Hating this fact that they are aging, growing older; left wondering if this is in a sense what they once felt as I grew. Did they at that time truly not want the time to pass? Did they wake each day with fear of the changes that were occurring on a daily basis that appears some days to be instantaneous. Or were they then embracing those growths of me and my brother and now I should be doing the same? Not fearing the changes, but rather, embracing them and enjoying them for what they are. Today, my Dad is on the VA bus down to the twin cities. An independent adventure of wills. He, as Father to me and my brother once joked about the VA bus; now he is on it proving to himself, or someone, maybe his kids, that the Independence is not yet gone. Funny little life journey, but one well needed and enjoyed, or at least I assume as he failed to tell us of the journey until the day was upon us. Not sure how or what I feel about the process, other than, apprehensive. I would bet, Dad is feeling much the same.